`[Verse of 29th October.]
Pray to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest. -Matthew 9:38

its raining terribly for a few days now. i really pray that it wouldnt rain next saturday. it would just about ruin everything.

been feeling weird these few days. as if i dont feel like doing anything, going anywhere. i dont know the reason for my feeling like this. its not because of my going to S3N(A) or anything.. i've been feeling terribly stressed lately.

i hope to let everything out on saturday, and throw all my troubles into the sea. since xiu feng's birthday is two days after next saturday, i hope she'll enjoy it and i hope i feel better to celebrate it together with her. but isabelle's not going. things wont be the same.

sincerely hope it doesnt rain on saturday. because it just means alot to me.

I cant believe its hard just to talk to you, but you dont understand.